Well  maybe being scared is a good thing for you today , tonight  at least you're recognizing the issue and stepping out and looking at it . ..   Imagine obsession being a weak virus , yes it's  miserable , yes it hurts,  but you know that feeding into it it just gets worse, you're wife , is not the one who stopped you before, that was you, only you do or don't  trust yourself on that one .

Tell the drug to shut up  you don't believe that you will pick it up today ;  and then don't .

Every time you cross that peak you may get scratched up bit , but  it only makes you  stronger and less afraid when you feel it again, plus you'll  have the experience to know exactly what to expect.

When you feel weak , then surround yourself with those in your same shoes with the same focus to  get better .

San Francisco must have 24 hour activity  .  Unplug the computer , put it in a case lock it up . Movies that are just for laughter only.