It's a simple equation, Robbie.

The reason you suffer is because you think you are unique, special, and that you read these posts and look for how you are different.

You ask over and over and over again for help - but your BPD won't let go of you long enough to get the following:

The only way to recover is to STOP thinking you are alone.

If that is impossible for you to do, that's fine. No judgement.

The universe doesn't care one shyte if you, me, or anyone here uses or not.

If you can read posts and find how you are similar-- pain will stop. Continue to do what you are doing and it won't.

We all hate to know that anyone is suffering, including but not exclusive to you.

But pain has nothing to do with addiction. And everything to do with thinking no one will ever understand.

Peace

T