Robby99 wrote:
Nine , you said you will not use ... well, good for you but I believe in my heart of hearts that NOBODY can stay clean from Meth forever .. if you are a real Meth addict like I am then everyone eventually will relapse on this drug .. it is the nature of the drug and addiction ... read everywhere and you will learn that Crystal Meth is a chronic relapsing illness . 

My name is DeVon, and I am a recovering alcoholic/addict.

My sobriety/clean date is August 5, 1990. I have not found it necessary to slam meth since June 11, 1986.

I relapsed on alcohol and cocaine after 4 years in recovery. 

I became terminally unique again about 3 months before the actual relapse.

I didn't need a sponsor. I didn't need to stay out of places that were slippery slopes. 

I didn't need to stay away from slippery people. I didn't need to participate in my own recovery.

You people didn't understand.

What a bunch of chumps!

Thank God I was able to get back into recovery after 2 long, hellish, miserable months out there!

No one will stay clean forever because none of us get out of this thing called life alive, do we?

With some basic guiding principles, the support of others in recovery, and a loving God, I'll go to bed tonight clean and sober again.

There have been times in  my recovery I was sure my ass would fall off.

I have watched my oldest daughter become an active addict/alcoholic.

My youngest daughter is now enmeshed with an alcoholic BF.

I have survived divorce, a broken engagement, several major surgeries, the deaths of friends, losing custody of my youngest daughter when she ran away at 15, financial ruin, watching the effects of this disease on my grandchildren, and too many more things to put in one sentence.

I have cried, stomped my feet, isolated, been depressed to the point of suicidal thoughts, hurt so bad I thought my insides were bleeding, screamed at God, and hated my fellow humans.

I have survived. There is a solution. I no longer want to die. I want to live, regardless of what may come my way.

Today the good far outweighs the bad. I have had the most growth during the most painful periods of my life.

Today I live in the solution, not the problem.