Excellent post Phoenix.  You hit the nail on the head.

Rob, you said:  "... I want to stay cleans some days , and other days I just wanna use ...."

Ummmmmm....................ME TOO!!!  But I don't use.  I won't use.  I WILL NOT USE.

Seriously, if you put as much effort into getting well as you do into trying to convince the world that you are more miserable than anyone else who suffers from addiction, I think you'd feel a hell of alot better than you do about your life.

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