I don't know what got it all stirred up in you again, I'm sorry it happened.

I know what got me all stirred up is one of my friends getting back on drugs. I have been craving a lot more since I found out of this about a month ago.

Up til then it was like it was really bad for the first month, and then got less except I had trouble at like 3 months and then at 6 months.

If these porn sites get you going, just don't look at them.

I am trying to be understanding to you too but I know as a wife if I found out my husband was looking at porn on the internet I would be a little hurt. If I found out he was sending and receiving messages from people who wanted to have sex with him and do drugs, I would be devastated.

I am not a strong one right now but I am doing my best. When it gets real bad I try to think of what will happen to my family if I do drugs and die or if I get caught. I try to think of how that would be.

I try to confess to my husband when I am having trouble so he can help me. Can you talk to your wife?

Also I don't know much about borderline personality, if it is like depression I know about that. Can you be on medicine for it so it doesn't give you so much problems?  I, too, am impulsive, but it is cause I am ADHD.  But my mood can change at the drop of a hat.  I use to be on an antidepressant.  It helped sort of.  I am on a med for ADHD now and that is my only med but it helps as long as I remember to take it.  Is there a med for borderline?

The one person said something about volunteering at an animal shelter, that would maybe be helpful? I have found, too, that regardless of when I get worked up, I get over it faster on a weekday. That is because I have to go to work. If it is the weekend and I don't have anything to do, I will sit and ruminate on it.

I don't know if this will help but hope so.

I think many of us struggle with cravings from time to time. Some days a person feels real strong and good, and then other times not so good, but it is either live like this or live in the mess we were in before.

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