Robby are you telling your wife about all of this you are telling us? ABout how badly you want to use and about the vides and PnP sites you're visiting? She is a recovering addict or alchohlic too, correct? What does her sponsor suggest? What does your sponsor suggest? (Don't have one, get one.)

REACH OUT FOR HELP FROM A SOBER PERSON.

Surrender, and do as they suggest. Even if it sounds dumb and you don't think it will help.

LET SOMEONE ELSE DRIVE THE BUS.

When you take suggestion, and just do what someone who isn't insane with cravings suggests, you are taking ACTION TO STAY SOBER.

The more suggestions you follow, the more action for sobriety you are taking, the more likely you are to be sober.

You can take actions that support a relapse, or take actions that support sobriety for one more day.

But you will have to ask for help and be willing to take the help you get (even if it's not the kind ofhelp you thought you wanted).

Robby, are you willing to follow suggestions from sober people?