FINALLY ! Thank You so much Jokersgirl. Finally , someone who relates to what I am going through. Before you all I get are people who have gotten past this stage that we go through and it feels like they just judge me for feeling this way.

It does suck real bad , you got that right. I too have good days and feel positive and all but then I have days like the past 8 where all I think and obsess about are needles and Crystal and the sex that goes with it ...

I feel like I have lost myself and what I used to like ... and my wife suffers as a result..

Recovery was going smooth for me until like 10 days ago .. and BAM - It all came back .. every craving and obsession. And worse than ever before. Thanks for the advice and well wishes...