Hi Robby,

I haven't been around for a little while, but I read the entire thread this morning and this is what I think.

I think you already made up your mind a while back to relapse.

Now I know you're gonna hate on me...go right ahead.  I'm not criticizing you, I'm not picking on you, I'm not attacking you.  It's just when I read the thread from start to finish, the overall gist of it was more of a warning to us that you're planning to use.

What steps have you taken to ward off the feelings of using?  I know you're using willpower, but obviously that isn't enough.

If you use, you use...we will be disappointed and sad, BUT THE ONLY PERSON YOU'LL ACTUALLY BE HURTING IS Y-O-U (and of course, your wife).

Try to remember, it's not an answer to anything...it just creates more and more problems.

I'm rootin' for ya, kiddo, to do the next right thing.