Cut off your internet service on all devices you own, and go to as many meetings as possible until it passes. It will pass but only if you let it, and you HAVE to change your thoughts. Don't try to do this alone, there is no need to. Find a sober person you trust, and ask them for help. Do exactly what they suggest, even if it sounds stupid, pointless, dumb, or too much trouble. Time to let someone else drive before you drive yourself off a cliff.