First of all, welcome. I'm glad you are here

However, I feel I must be honest with you. Your posts contain very important and deadly contradictons. Most important of those is that you assert your fiancé is good for your recovery.

Nothing could be further from the truth than that.

He might make you feel good or happy or special (and I won't debate the merits of this)

But he is DEADLY to your recovery. Because he is keeping the idea of Meth alive in your head and he is hoping you will do it with him.