Detective,

I have been a christian my entire life, but I think that you are taking things to the extreme. Knowing the Bible from cover to cover is good, but if you don't take the time to listen to what God is telling you, you are in trouble. I honestly don't believe that God wants you to drag yourself down. Please take a moment to listen to the still, small voice inside of you. From your posts, I get the feeling that you are consumed with this person!! It is taking up too much of your time!! If she wants help from God, she will go to church on her own, without an invitation or ride from you. Please remove yourself from this situation ASAP!! She IS controlling and manipulating you, whether you believe it or not.

Try to find a hobby, something that doesn't involve anything that you and she did together.

Trust me, I have been where you are. I know that your mind is consumed with "what if's" and scenario's that play out the way that you want them to. It isn't going to happen. You are waiting for the day that she comes to you and says that she wants you, she wants to go to church, that she can't believe that she didn't see earlier how special you are! In your scenario, she'll ask for your forgiveness and you will readily give it, just to have her with you. Then all will end well. You and she will live happily ever after, meth free!!

My friend, the above scenario is a pipe dream. Be strong, and make yourself walk away! Find strength in Christ to do this, but don't use the Bible as an argument to join your ex on her downward spiral. The Bible has lots and lots of well-formed, divine arguments that cannot be refuted, even by the most intelligent individuals. Use the intelligence that it is so obvious that you have and start living your life to the fullest!! LET HER GO!!