Thanks, WW ~ I am feeling empowered right now, but ya know, I am finding myself not really being able to enjoy it as much as I want to, because I know the other empty lonely sad feelings are coming at some point. Hopefully now that I have had this experience...when those feelings come I will just wait them out, knowing they won't stay forever?

It sure did not feel like a loving thing to do ~ but who knows, maybe if I hadn't done it, something worse could have happened?