I think talking about what you can at any given time is a good thing. You know, recovery is a lot about honesty. They call it a spiritual principle. I think that's a big deal. You're being honest by talking about it, you don't have to name specifics too much to help yourself, either. If you're helping by getting something out, it's helping. It's all a process.

It's damned fine work that something that has not gone well for you in the past (to say the least?) wasn't in control this time. Something else won out this time. Maybe your process of sharing will help you analyze it, without so MUCH shame, and figure out, even if just a fraction more, what is going on there, just maybe.

I know, because I hardly can even own up to having my shame sometimes. I'm such a dumba** about it sometimes!! It took me years, I think, of figuring out that those times when I couldn't look my husband in the eye (not even for a reason, just couldn't do it at all), that was my unprocessed shame. And after I figured it out, it took me a while to talk about it.

When I went back to meetings, it took me 3 weeks to realize I'd even had a relapse before I went back. Duh.

So any kind of talking will always get you somewhere. You're doing good work for you, it will get you where you need to go. I totally buy that.