I just thought that if I put it out there, even though I'm being vague, it would help me figure out the WHY of it. It really fuckks with me when it happens. Thank God it doesn't happen often. I just hope I am able to be as strong next time. Seriously, I wish it would NEVER happen again.

I know, I know, wish in one and......well....you know.....

Just had to get out.