Wat2do,
As you mentioned in my posts, we are in such a similar situation. My heart goes out to you because I know exactly how you are feeling. I haven't been able to eat, sleep, or do anything because my mind is consumed with all of this. It is soooo scary to think about going off--leaving him behind, but from what I have learned and deep down in my heart, I know that it is the only chance we have...I say "we" because I still have hope and faith that he will recover. He has such a long way to go...so in denial about it. The mere mention of it upsets him. He will not discuss it at all and I know I shouldn't try, but I guess I am just hoping to see something in there,....some light inside before I leave. I had told him in the past if I ever found out he was using, I would be gone. He promised, he promised. Have you read the post about "letter from a meth addict"?? It says a lot...and they will say a lot to deny deny deny. I can't fall for it, I won't. My heart still breaks, but in loving him, this is what i need to do.