This is so good to read - and yes people care about you !

Lisa WW and I are good friends and talk and she had told me you were doing well and she had seen you while sharing her day with me.

I have the utmost empathy , compassion for people fighting the fight - I am so lucky my meds make me not want alcohol Robby or I would still be turning that over in my head all the time.

When we are in it - we want out - and when we get out, we want back in ?! Like it's gonna be different ?

Funny how we talk ourselves into getting high because this will be the high we have learned to control - and when we talk ourselves into getting clean we are quickly discouraged because all we think about is how bad it's gonna suck withdrawing .


It's all about control and we have none externally - it's all in the mind and your thoughts - life is about balance and it only makes sense that good thoughts come with bad thoughts . You have a choice (control) to pay attention to finding good in the unknown ( long term sobriety ) and dismissing the using thoughts - concentrate your thinking on the bad and it will become habit.

I applied that to my thinking by taking myself all the way thru to the coming down broke no money no place to stay feeling like crap and stayed there and wallowed in it .

Another one of the things we learned in kindergarten - use your imagination - make it a REALLY REALLY bad trip - then when you don't do it - you will stand a little taller every time it happens. Then you will start to feel bETTER than that *%$! - like you deserve more ...... and everyone does !

This got long - but I just wanted to send you words of encouragement and I thank GOD I have no more cravings or even thoughts about meth and I am many years clean from that evil sheot.

Good job Robby ! You must be proud of yourself !!