Thanks for the additional advice Wonderwoman. We were together 6 years, married for 4 and we helped raise each other's children. I think he has a good heart without "meth", but maybe I'm wrong and he is a sociopath...I guess I will never know. I will grab that book you mentioned. I have been buying all sorts of books like this lately (maybe I'm a self-help book addict but there are worse addictions).

Starfishy has more excellent advice, just to simply ask people not to share information about him with me. A small part of me wants to know, but it's probably better that I don't hear it.

Silent...I do believe that his "getting fat" indicates he quit because he actually admitted to a mutual friend that he was doing it in the first place and that he had quit. Never before has he even admitted it to anyone that he ever did it. So I guess the dope did wear off and still no answers for me.

I do seem to compare myself with the "new" woman a lot, and there is really not much of a comparison. I am prettier, in better shape, a great mother, and more successful...maybe that's why I don't get it. I would think I would win hands down. I am trying to focus on me and get a life, but I still have good days and bad and sometimes the negative thoughts win.

Thanks for the support everyone! It really helps, I actually feel a lot better when I get feedback from people who have "walked the walk". No one else seems to understand.

XOXOXO