Thanks everyone - Ian , I like writing non crazy shyt a lot better too ...

Smile , thanks - You actually tell your kids about me ? That just blows me away because I often don't think I matter a whole lot to people but maybe I do .. For my 90 days I picked up my chip at a CMA meeting at 1030 this morning where I have a commitment and that was cool - then I spent the day volunteering with dogs and then I drove across the Golden Gate Bridge in the car that is part of my dog/house sitting job until Tuesday , so I am out here in this beautiful, tranquil wooded area in an amazing 1.5 million dollar house watching these two adorable and sweet dogs for a few days and get to sleep in a BIG cozy bed ( after I finish my homework and study for math test tomorrow ) overlooking tall redwood trees all around the house and I get $100 a day which I desperately need. The woman also said I can maybe help her with her dog food business in August when I have my school break. The CMA meeting today was about "values " and to think someone trusts me with their car, dogs, and home is a change for sure , and it is because meth stripped my values away but I have them back - and I trust God will bring more amazing things to me if I just stay clean one day at a time - sure, I have my depressions and issues but for TODAY life is not so bad .. actually pretty good.