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A lot of people stop taking anti-depressants when they stop feeling depressed, and the depression comes back...especially if it's not mainly situational
depression.
Well, I find myself in a similiar situation. (Don't worry, I'm still taking my p-meds.) It's only that I've stopped working on addiction recovery after deciding that "I'm done" with all substances a few months back.
I thought, there's no point in continueing to define myself as an addict and having to think about it every day. After all, it had been years since I was so strung I almost died. And I was no longer waiting for the opportunity to use crank again to fall into my lap. I stopped having cravings and euphoric recall/ romanticizing living on the edge with enhanced senses (not totally unlike the mythical vampire.)
Well, a few weeks back I started into a major funk, complete with obsessive thoughts and major paranoia. I didn't see it as possibly related to the fact that I had put my addiction issues completely out of my head. I thought I just needed a med change (which I might.) I actually looked forward to the dizzy feeling I experience when my brain adjusts its chemical balance. I thought that once I could finally get in to see my p-doc everything would get better; I guess I was looking for a magic pill/ silver bullet for my "lil' demon." Clearly, I'm not at the point where I can just tuck my addiction issues away as being a part of my past that doesn't help define who I am today.
I've just read Penelope's "What's the Point?" and something clicked in my head.
Maybe a big part of the reason I'm feeling like this is that I'm not
working any recovery plan currently. 
Heck, my therapist's closing statement is usually, "You know what you have to do, you just need to do it." I reckon it applies to all aspects of my dual diagnosis recovery.
I'm very lucky, I know, that I didn't relapse with this stinkin' thinkin'!
All this considered, my question to you is: When will an addict be healed enough to stop daily work specifically about addiction? Or is it a lifetime commitment like taking one's meds daily?
Well, I find myself in a similiar situation. (Don't worry, I'm still taking my p-meds.) It's only that I've stopped working on addiction recovery after deciding that "I'm done" with all substances a few months back.
I thought, there's no point in continueing to define myself as an addict and having to think about it every day. After all, it had been years since I was so strung I almost died. And I was no longer waiting for the opportunity to use crank again to fall into my lap. I stopped having cravings and euphoric recall/ romanticizing living on the edge with enhanced senses (not totally unlike the mythical vampire.)
Well, a few weeks back I started into a major funk, complete with obsessive thoughts and major paranoia. I didn't see it as possibly related to the fact that I had put my addiction issues completely out of my head. I thought I just needed a med change (which I might.) I actually looked forward to the dizzy feeling I experience when my brain adjusts its chemical balance. I thought that once I could finally get in to see my p-doc everything would get better; I guess I was looking for a magic pill/ silver bullet for my "lil' demon." Clearly, I'm not at the point where I can just tuck my addiction issues away as being a part of my past that doesn't help define who I am today.
I've just read Penelope's "What's the Point?" and something clicked in my head.
Maybe a big part of the reason I'm feeling like this is that I'm not
working any recovery plan currently.
Heck, my therapist's closing statement is usually, "You know what you have to do, you just need to do it." I reckon it applies to all aspects of my dual diagnosis recovery.
I'm very lucky, I know, that I didn't relapse with this stinkin' thinkin'!
All this considered, my question to you is: When will an addict be healed enough to stop daily work specifically about addiction? Or is it a lifetime commitment like taking one's meds daily?
