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Hey Suz,

Out of curiosity, do you think that your wanting meth every single day will eventually go away? Niner and Pen, (both long-term in their recovery,) say the thought of using makes them sick. I wonder if, and am hoping that, as time goes on, you will want it less and less and eventually the thought will make you sick as well.

Just as an observer, time seems to be a very important element - time away from it - anything.

When my sister-in-law, (addicted to everything, but her DOC was crack cocaine,) finally went to prison for 6 months, we made an agreement with her that if she would write to us, (ex-hubby and me,) we would keep some $ on her books. Well, let me tell you, she wrote for that $, and I kept her letters.

In the beginning, her writing was nearly illegible, and she was unable to even make whole sentences. As time went on, I pointed out, (or tried to,) to my ex that her writing kept getting better and better with clean time. By the time she got out, she was making a lot of sense and I could even detect a little bit of "feeling" in her writings. But of course, she relapsed after she got out - her clean time was forced. Drugs have taken a terrible toll on this once drop-dead gorgeous woman who had a heart of gold. She, like her brother, is a different animal now.

At any rate, my point I guess is that I am thinking and hoping that this craving for you will not last forever.

Starfishy