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In going back to your initial question 9, I wanted to touch on this.

As you know my drug of choice was heroin and speed, back in the day, the speed was coke.
When I first kicked heroin, I still toyed with the speed, still coke. Then I stopped and started working on life stuff.

Then later, got high again, on coke.. snorted it.
I got messed up because I had so much clean time, it made me really paronoid, it was not a good high.
I vowed never to touch the stuff again. I was done with heroin completely by then... still am.

Then as time went on, I wanted to get high again, and did some crank, then some ice, then some go-fast.
The crank was powdery and like yellowish, the ice was clearer and harder, go fast was white powdery but corser than coke.
Some say all that is meth. IMO, it isn't.. maybe the ice.

Anyway, down the road, I ran into some meth and I had some good clean time, year or so, I don't know.
The meth was new to me and in a different state, I wanted to be careful.
So I did a small bump. It was cool.
Then I did some more. It was still cool but I stayed up for all day and was down to do more of the day and later in the day, more of the dope.

Eventually, I ended up really messed up on that stuff.
It got real intense at one time and it did not take long.
I think I had maybe scored three sacks by then.
I stopped and said, "enough of that stuff".

Then the very last time I did it, I knew what to expect so I only got what I wanted to do some like on the sneak.
It was my intent to just get high so I could be high, some stuff had happened then another death of a loved one...
I just wanted to get high.

And pot in my book, I can put the mota down and I'm cool.

so back to your meth question.

I won't ever do heroin, I can say, "I can bank on that."
Pot, I can take it or leave it, no biggie to me really once I get my mind set.

I'll always be an addict or some sort or another.
So I can say that IF I had to choose a "drug" to do...
excluding pot, because to me, that's not "dope",
it'd be meth.

I think IF I ever relapse again, I can honestly say if I had it coke, pot, chiva, meth, pills all out there and had the choice...
and I was down to relapse, I'd do it with meth. The meth I've seen and done is sort of corse and white colored. I didn't like the others.
Again, I'm no meth expert, but I've seen dope and I can see the difference in the stuff. I don't know where it came from, just where to get it.

I hope that sort of answered your question about once a "meth" addict always a meth addict.

On a final note, I don't want to be doing any dope and I think IF I relapse, I make the conscious choice to do so.
I choose not to, so I'm cool staying away from all dope.