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you know as well as me were that $+!$ takes you mentally.pretty much insane.I was just looking for another excuse to use.And thats what i did.Whats going on
around here is my fault.I didnt mean to stir up $+!$.But i quess I"m good at that.We are all diifferant people.and have our own ways to deal with things.I
tend to follow the pitty party wagon.Which you dont realize unless you communicate with others that have been here.I look at all replies as possitive.Because
he someone will talk to me even though my mood and look keep the ones close distant.its saturday and really ruff on me physicly.Eating a lot and irratable so
trying to rest alot.some of you call this cyborspace.Not enough to help me in my state.But if kci and all of you werent here I"d be a lot worse.Thank you
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Posts: 14137 (05/10/08 17:33:10) Retro Space Cadet |
I have self basted all day about this.....and I wrote your family a letter.....and PMed it for you to show them
...I was wrong, and I'm sorry Robert. I'll even publiclly apologize here is the letter: __________________________________________________________________________________ Dear Robert's Family~ ...I am so sorry for my bad behaivior, It IS MY behaivior, not Robert's. ...IN NO WAY.... did he indicate I should do anything like that. I have been a meth addict, for 22 years. ...I have been clean for 3 years. Sometimes, frankly, I'm impulsive, and do stupid things. ....I run my own website, and historically, shock value has helped with depression in many cases. people just are'nt expecting to see that. ......just like he was'nt. but they forget to be depressed for a second, and that was the goal I was trying to acheive. he's already indicated, he won't be coming there.... ........really it was all my fault. I'm not emotionally sound enough to try and have a relationship with anyone... ...it's hard on my own family. PLEASE forgive me. .......I did'nt mean to make him more sad...and you upset.. I feel terrible about it. and again,, HE DID'NT ASK FOR THAT! ....he came here for help. sometimes I'm able to help addicts, and Loved ones. ......sometimes I fail. I failed this time. ...and i punish myself, so don't think I have'nt thought about it. I self baste.. ....I just keep mentallypouring the wrong doing over myself until I think I learned, I did cry, .......but shock value, and distraction are my specialties, it's the theme of my recovery board and it works for the people that go there .....but, it's unnacceptable to the regualr world,' ............... I sincerly apologize for what I did. I swear on my eyesight. .................it won't happen again. humblely, and sincerely.. ...I'm soooo sorry. please forgive me.. suzie ________________________________________________________________ . |
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Posts: 1216 (05/10/08 17:37:27) Forum Friend |
Your part of a community now Robert and a member of a club that I wouldn't wish on my worst enemy. When it comes to the damage that addiction causes, not
all addicts are equal…. Some get out pretty easy, and some, like us, don't.
For some of us we ride this thing all the way to the end, and when we do, chaos and insanity, and all the baggage like guilt, anger, shame, and remorse that come with, become a normal part of our daily lives…. Hopelessness is not just a word to us is it? But, it is NOT normal, it's just a predictable place that our drug affected minds will take us…And I do mean "us" Robert, there are more than a few of us here who didn't get out when we should have, we have been where you are… We truly came to learn how real the words "jails, institutions and death" are… We understand that our "best thinking" thinking got us to where we are… And that our "broken brains can't fix our broken brains"…. We asked for help, and more importantly we accepted it. God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change; the courage to change the things I can; and the wisdom to know the difference. |
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Posts: 14138 (05/10/08 17:44:48) Retro Space Cadet |
I'd rather have a shot gun a nd a paper bag.
......there's nothing that will help me....I'm damged. you might not be as bad off. ....my pre existing ADHD is out of control. you can expect to be emotional. |
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Posts: 14139 (05/10/08 18:10:55) Retro Space Cadet |
this about covers how you feel huh? it did for me at this point. |
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Posts: 14140 (10/08/41 12:10:47) Retro Space Cadet |
this one was dead on too... ....since I as on the street.....perfect. |
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Posts: 6804 (05/10/08 19:55:55) Moderator |
That was a nice apology letter, Suz. Well done.
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Posts: 241 (05/10/08 20:04:12) |
I feel jipped.... just because I dont have a drug problem I dont get to see the hooters???? What the "F" Suz??? I'd flash you mine but you'd need a telephoto lense to see em! |
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Posts: 7604 (05/10/08 20:05:42) Best Friend to KCI |
I feel sorta like a second class citizen now, knowing Suz never flashed me when I was down and out!
BIOTCH! 
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Posts: 14141 (05/10/08 20:48:26) Retro Space Cadet |
check yer male...uhm...mail. LOL
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Posts: 14142 (05/10/08 21:02:57) Retro Space Cadet |
M, I gave you extra, no one wanted...LOL!
....I'll forward it 2 U2 9er.... I don't post THIS many for robert...gawd! LOL ..........but you won't feel jipped now. |
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Posts: 14143 (05/10/08 21:04:58) Retro Space Cadet |
thanks Loraura..
...thats all I can do now... |
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Posts: 85 (05/10/08 22:15:57) |
It's all good Suzy... You are a good person.....
hooters rock!!
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Posts: 1070 (05/10/08 23:02:53) |
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starfishlover123 wrote:Speaking of which, I start two online college classes in less than a month now, one semester classes crammed into 8 weeks. That means I will have to discipline myself to do school work and not play on the internet! 
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Yeah, I am doing job interviews all this next week and doctor's visits - so I am actually looking forward to filling my time with something other than the net. I used to take 41/2-hour block classes for 16 weeks at a time. It was tough work, but it kept me out of trouble. You will do fine, just keep on plugging! Blessings, Starfishy ><> |
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Posts: 14144 (05/10/08 23:21:02) Retro Space Cadet |
oaklandathletic..you wanna see em too?
...LoL! I don't discriminate, I cant flash forever!
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Posts: 3404 (05/10/08 23:54:41) Forum Grouch |
Do my boobs look weird to you guys?
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Posts: 14145 (05/11/08 01:45:55) Retro Space Cadet |
no, not at all...
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mr soul shine |
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Posts: 317 (05/11/08 06:15:31) |
that's a cool pic of you luv!
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Posts: 7490 (05/11/08 06:18:04) Forum Star |
who has the real boobs?
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