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Thanks for all the responses. I don't even know where this came from today. Being tired (having a small child who won't sleep through the night
anymore,) and letting things build and build inside me. I do love him. I do want to fight. But sometimes, the statistics seem to bleak. I talk to a friend
of mine who used to use and she says that despite being clean for 5 years, if she found it in her house, she'd use it. Even though she has 3 beautiful
babies, she'd use it. If she knew it was next door, she'd break in and use it. That's how powerful a drug it is. I just wonder how someone can
possibly get over this. How they can win.
I don't mean to sound so down. Sometimes, I just don't know what to do. I think about him relapsing and I don't know how I can make it--physically, mentally, spiritually. I feel as though it's eaten so much away from me. Sometimes, I look in the mirror and try to find the person I was and I can't, it's just someone going through the motions, trying not to worry, trying not to snoop.
I don't want to be a reason why he goes back to it--because I can't cope sometimes. I just don't know what to do. I've looked into nar-anon meetings. I'll start there.
thank you again for the words, though..... I appreciate it so much...
I don't mean to sound so down. Sometimes, I just don't know what to do. I think about him relapsing and I don't know how I can make it--physically, mentally, spiritually. I feel as though it's eaten so much away from me. Sometimes, I look in the mirror and try to find the person I was and I can't, it's just someone going through the motions, trying not to worry, trying not to snoop.
I don't want to be a reason why he goes back to it--because I can't cope sometimes. I just don't know what to do. I've looked into nar-anon meetings. I'll start there.
thank you again for the words, though..... I appreciate it so much...
