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Hello and maybe goodbye to all my dearest friends here at KCI...
I first stumbled upon KCI in March 2006 when my husband left our 2 kids (then 1 and 2 years old) and I to go on a meth run for more then a month. And the advice, support and love I felt here gave me the education and strength that I really needed at that time to go through hell and back. To cut the long story short, since then he has had a few relapses and honestly the struggle to support him in recovery (or abstinence I'm not sure which) has been equally if not much harder to deal with.
For more then 2 years now, I have tried my darndest best to understand and deal with his addiction and relapses, plus all the stuff that comes with this...but it has come a time now where I have made a decision to let go and move on with my life. I have decided that in the best interest of the 2 kids and myself that I need to preserve my self sanity and stop taking this hellish roller coaster ride. 2 weeks ago, Jason and I went our separate ways and I have officially filed for a divorce. This has got to be the hardest decision of my life and I have been praying really hard that I have made a decision in the best interest of all. I am not sure whether Jason will accept this or he may put up a fight especially where the kids (or other matters) are concerned but time will tell I suppose.
Sorry guys that I copped out but my heart has decided to call it a day and I have no more zest and spirit in me to keep fighting this battle.
I am writing this to thank all you special people who have walked this journey with us for the last 2 years or so...and not in order of importance and my most sincere apologies if I left anyone out....
Rancid (Matt) - thanks bro! I will never forget how you used to show us your messy room in the chat room and how we never failed to have a good laugh
Shane (eyesopen) - I love you brother...and I will forever cherish those happy memories of our time in Goldcoast. Stay strong and keep fighting because I believe in you.
Stinky - Your words of wisdom and how you never failed to answer each of our posts (both happy and sad) will remain close to my heart. Thank you from the bottom of my heart.
Danimal - BRO DAN! You rock rock rock!!! Thanks for checking in time and again and thanks for your advice all this while. You have been a great pillar of strength for me.
Penelope - Thanks to you too for your invaluable advice and for sharing your experiences with us. We will not have even come this far without you.
Brokenbymeth (Karen) - Girl...I have no clue where you have disappeared to but you were my first point of contact here at KCI. I pray you are doing well...I love you longtime remember that.
SFJ - Your wealth of knowledge has been instrumental in educating me about meth and its effects...thanks for everything.
Broken - Thank you for being there when Jason was down and out and for saying such nice things about me...
Angel4u - Thanks for offering your never ending support in the chat room...
Suzette - You are soooo special did you know that? What you have said to Jason and I has helped us in our struggles and to make us realize that we are really only humans.
Lori (9er) - Thanks for being an inspiration and beacon of hope and strength...you have no idea how much you have helped me in this journey. I love ya.
Guestwho (B) - Thank you so much my friend for believing in me and for always giving me the truth straight up. You stay strong in your recovery and please keep in touch.
And to all the rest of you who I may have left out, a BIG BIG thank you from the bottom of my heart. Though we might be miles apart across in cyber space, know that I hold all of you close to my heart and that I will remember each one of you in my prayers.
Love, K (Methphobia)
I first stumbled upon KCI in March 2006 when my husband left our 2 kids (then 1 and 2 years old) and I to go on a meth run for more then a month. And the advice, support and love I felt here gave me the education and strength that I really needed at that time to go through hell and back. To cut the long story short, since then he has had a few relapses and honestly the struggle to support him in recovery (or abstinence I'm not sure which) has been equally if not much harder to deal with.
For more then 2 years now, I have tried my darndest best to understand and deal with his addiction and relapses, plus all the stuff that comes with this...but it has come a time now where I have made a decision to let go and move on with my life. I have decided that in the best interest of the 2 kids and myself that I need to preserve my self sanity and stop taking this hellish roller coaster ride. 2 weeks ago, Jason and I went our separate ways and I have officially filed for a divorce. This has got to be the hardest decision of my life and I have been praying really hard that I have made a decision in the best interest of all. I am not sure whether Jason will accept this or he may put up a fight especially where the kids (or other matters) are concerned but time will tell I suppose.
Sorry guys that I copped out but my heart has decided to call it a day and I have no more zest and spirit in me to keep fighting this battle.
I am writing this to thank all you special people who have walked this journey with us for the last 2 years or so...and not in order of importance and my most sincere apologies if I left anyone out....
Rancid (Matt) - thanks bro! I will never forget how you used to show us your messy room in the chat room and how we never failed to have a good laugh
Shane (eyesopen) - I love you brother...and I will forever cherish those happy memories of our time in Goldcoast. Stay strong and keep fighting because I believe in you.
Stinky - Your words of wisdom and how you never failed to answer each of our posts (both happy and sad) will remain close to my heart. Thank you from the bottom of my heart.
Danimal - BRO DAN! You rock rock rock!!! Thanks for checking in time and again and thanks for your advice all this while. You have been a great pillar of strength for me.
Penelope - Thanks to you too for your invaluable advice and for sharing your experiences with us. We will not have even come this far without you.
Brokenbymeth (Karen) - Girl...I have no clue where you have disappeared to but you were my first point of contact here at KCI. I pray you are doing well...I love you longtime remember that.
SFJ - Your wealth of knowledge has been instrumental in educating me about meth and its effects...thanks for everything.
Broken - Thank you for being there when Jason was down and out and for saying such nice things about me...
Angel4u - Thanks for offering your never ending support in the chat room...
Suzette - You are soooo special did you know that? What you have said to Jason and I has helped us in our struggles and to make us realize that we are really only humans.
Lori (9er) - Thanks for being an inspiration and beacon of hope and strength...you have no idea how much you have helped me in this journey. I love ya.
Guestwho (B) - Thank you so much my friend for believing in me and for always giving me the truth straight up. You stay strong in your recovery and please keep in touch.
And to all the rest of you who I may have left out, a BIG BIG thank you from the bottom of my heart. Though we might be miles apart across in cyber space, know that I hold all of you close to my heart and that I will remember each one of you in my prayers.
Love, K (Methphobia)
