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Hi lovely Savannah -

You know, the Seroquel used to make me feel a little dopey too - and I was like "whuuut... I thought this wasn't a dopey script!"


And you know, sometimes I am really really sick of "getting better". It seems like I have done a life time of changing and I am sick of constantly being faced with new things I have to either change, improve, let go of, or essentially - LOSE just for the sake of being somewhat sane. What aren't we being asked to "let go" of?

It's so tiresome, isn't it?

I've used this little line before, so sorry if it seems like a repeat:

What you are doing, what you have been doing for years now, is being incredibly brave. In the face of all these challenges, you are (from our view) holding your head up high and doing whats right - constantly. You don't feel brave maybe, because if what you were doing was easy, it wouldn't be bravery, right?

It's kind of the price you pay in the beginning because in order to be awesome, you have to feel kind of not awesome because the path to awesomeness is usually mined with challenge after challenge after challenge. But I am thoroughly convinced further into the path, it actually begins to /feel/ awesome, too.

And yeah, I know that sometimes we don't feel up to the challenge today.

I totally hear you when you say that at least other tweakers are someone to hang out with. And indeed, they would be. But it just may not feel the same - it would be as fulfilling as the company of an uninspired and jaded prostitute when what you are looking for is deep intimate companionship.

It's like eating fast food when you are really craving something good.

It's like craving a cheap high from meth when what you are really after is some genuine enthusiasm for life.


You've made such a huge investment in your life - and if you can get through today, you will have kept it all and still earning interest on it. You are so absolutely worth this.

Hang in there - we're all hanging on, too.

Love ya Savannah.