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I admit, I do my fair share of picking on tater tot.
.....partly, he "feels familiar" and feel like I be able to put my finger on the familiarity
if we spar.

...it does'nt hurt my feelings in the least.

I feel like a fly landed on me...and brush it away.

In the 3 years, on message boards
...........I have been called everything you can think of in your wildest dreams....
by people that were my peers, that I grew to love.....that broke my heart in a million pieces.
........for MONTHS.....I cried over various things, and since we were friends,
I allowed for the possibility....
...............they might be right in some cases.

.But, lemmie tell ya.

.........if you KNOW somebody, they know you, and can rip your lining out of your protective armor.
...like someone you confided in ....and call friend.

I don't play that way.
....I'm DOING MY BEST TO WORK IT OUT.....NOT KILL THEM with mean, unneeded words.

some of us have selective memory, and will tell you, you never had their back.
....and I mean it HURTS! ...if you always did.

but when you relapse EVERYBODY is the enemy...no matter how close you were for some.

some people, I'm sure KCI too...

........it really busts your heart to ban them....
but they aren't them....they are the "other" them.
....and they don't mind teaching you a few things about "sharing" on line.

......people like Mr tot.

I'll go either way....
...........I also frequent a flame board.

that's where I learned how to do everything I know how to do...
.....like "clear my cache".

.....where strangers are concerned, don't feel you need to defend me.

I don't give a FUK what they think.....unless they are actually trying to help.
......that hurts sometimes too.
but THATs growth.

I consider people who come in a say " meth feels good"

not destroyed yet.

....you can't tell em NOTHING.

It DID feel good.

....now it takes more of me.

they don't read what you write, trust me.

if they are high...or they are in love with her still.

.....they are all about posting, but their receiving is out of order.

so any lengthy post you write em, if they are belligerent..

......you might as well herd cats.

it's a waste of all our time....

.....unless I'm irritated, and I love the target practice.
in early recovery people would come get me to cuss out trolls...

....I don't talk to people that way in real life, or if you are sincere.

so it's fun being bad ....if you feel you have a leg to stand on for doing it.

the mods are my friends, and they PM me to say, Suzie.....cmon....take that down please.?

...........and I happily do.

because it was last nights garbage usually, not anything but a word game to me.

If i actually cared, it might hurt me......that never happens.
....but....some kind of spar between me and a tater tot?

so?

don't let it bother you.

.....you know I got enough strength in my convictions and beliefs...

I can actually have an intelligent conversation with pen or loraura.....hot ones.
,,,,and we part as friends who love each other just the same,,

we don't go for the throat.

even tho we're opposites.....we enjoy each other very much...as a gauge to see
how well our beliefs are holding up...

....and we don't mind admitting a mistake, or unthought of view point is better.

man, you should have seen me when i got here.

I was mr tator tot.

....me, pen and damimal RAISED HELL for 6 hours......and a few more hours to boot.

and look what close friends we are now.

....we helped define each other.

you never know if a piece of coal is a diamond.

you ta work on it.

I was'nt right calling him a fuktard.

.....i was just playin.


he was too, acting like he meant it.


gimmie a break.