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nineyearsclean

I have seen the enemy......

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Posts: 7319

(03/26/08 07:06:14)

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......and it is ME.

Damn, I'm an addict, and there ain't no gettin' around it.

How I ever stopped using meth long enough to get the message of recovery is beyond me this morning.

I'm kickin' nicotine these days, and last night, I kicked myself in the ass, true to my addict nature, and binged on a 1/2 pack, after working myself down to less than 5 per day.

My throat hurts, I'm coughing up brown shyt, and it's taking more effort to breath. Plus, I feel like an idiot.

I have seen the enemy, and it is ME.

If you're struggling with meth, take heed: it's not just about the addictive drug we take, but about facing ourselves and being downright honest about who we are and the part we play in this madness called addiction.

I'll tell you what: I am more determined to kick the shyt out of this addiction than EVER BEFORE!

I will not surrender.

Last Edited By: nineyearsclean 03/26/08 07:08:29. Edited 1 time.

fishslapr

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Posts: 189

(03/26/08 07:24:47)

good for you, nine... I too feel the brunt of the desire to kick myself in the teeth this morning...maybe if I can remember to slap myself upside the head before I kick my teeth out I'll be ok... lol

may the force be with you...

greg

luvepiphany

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Posts: 6751

(03/26/08 07:35:59)

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Do Not Give Up! You go get that damned addiction!

When I read your words of the other day.....

Today I don't feel so confident about being able to quit, but I'm not giving up

I was a tad bit worried. Perhaps you were uhhhhh, making a reservation?

Well, your admittance and honesty of the reality of the "enemy" helps me to plan out my recovery from That damned addiction.

So, thank you for carrying the message.

luv

starfishlover123

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Posts: 1004

(03/26/08 09:38:13)

Keep trying niner - you can beat it. Sending you good thoughts today. I gotta beat it too.

Speaking of addiction - I beat the smokes for a solid 6 years then lit up again - 6 months now and time to get back to business. I know HOW to do it - I just gotta do it.

Does the Chantix help?

Much Love,
Starfishy

Brn7more

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Posts: 151

(03/26/08 12:25:51)

What is it? I put them down for three years and.....picked it back up again! out of boredom! I know they are bad for my health and I just don't want any kind of addiction hanging over my head, controlling me! I was just sneaking one or two a day ...you know so it won't be hard to quit again! Wow then my brother died and it was on for at least two weeks....I am down to two a day.... and it has been a bit of a struggle! I don't want to smoke any more but am I really ready to give it up for good? I am gonna become a NON-Smoker..... and I have confidence you will too!!!!!!!!!!!!! Don't give up! You will succeed......eventually!

nineyearsclean

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Posts: 7325

(03/27/08 07:55:20)

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30+ years later, I am done with nicotine.

Today is March 27, 2008, and I AM A NON-SMOKER!!

(See what happens when I get pissed off!!!)

smilewasmask

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Posts: 1925

(03/27/08 08:12:35)

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WOOOOO HOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!
.....as danimal says.......
YOU ROCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

danimal55

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Posts: 6994

(03/27/08 09:13:36)

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Let the healing begin!!

Within ...
20 minutes	Your blood pressure, pulse rate, and the temperature of your hands and feet will all return to normal.
12 hours	Your blood oxygen level will have increased to normal and carbon monoxide levels will have dropped to normal.
48 hours	Damaged nerve endings have started to regrow and your sense of smell and taste are beginning to return to normal.
72 hours	Your entire body will test 100% nicotine-free and over 90% of all nicotine metabolites will now have passed from your body via your urine. You can also expect the symptoms of chemical withdrawal to have peaked in intensity. Your bronchial tubes are beginning to relax thus making it easier to breathe. Your lung capacity has also started to increase.
10 days to 2 weeks	Your body has physically adjusted to again functioning without nicotine and the more than 3,500 chemical particles and 500 gases present in each and every puff.
2 weeks to 3 months	Your heart attack risk has started to drop. Your lung function is beginning to improve.
3 weeks to 3 months	Your circulation has substantially improved. Walking has become easier. Your chronic cough, if any, has likely disappeared.
1 to 9 months	Any smoking related sinus congestion, fatigue or shortness of breath have decreased. Cilia have regrown in your lungs thereby increasing their ability to handle mucus, keep your lungs clean, and reduce infections. Your body's overall energy has increased.
1 year	Your excess risk of coronary heart disease has dropped to less than half that of a smoker.
5 to 15 years	Your risk of stroke has declined to that of a non-smoker.
10 years	Your risk of death from lung cancer has declined by almost half if you were an average smoker (one pack per day). Your risk of cancer of the mouth, throat and esophagus has now decreased.
15 years	Your risk of coronary heart disease is now that of a person who has never smoked.

Hemetchik

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Posts: 3055

(03/27/08 09:54:29)

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That brown shyt...eww just imagine if it stayed in ya niner...

good going mama...love deb

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