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I am writing this post because early Saturday morning I used meth for the first time, smoking it over a period of several hours.
It is something that was more or less accidental; I was drunk and showed extremely poor judgment.
I wanted to lay out my experience, get input, advice, etc. because I do not want to have a second encounter.
Luckily, nothing else unsafe occurred, but I smoked a significant amount over, until early evening. I actually did not really enjoy the high much and smoked more because it was there and, while I knew it was bad news, was obviously unaware of the consequences of the tweaking phase.
I fell asleep for about 5 hours and still felt kinda bugged out when I woke up. I forced myself to eat breakfast, took a multivitamin, etc. Afterwards, I experienced several hours of the most humbling and overwhelming feelings. Paranoia, mild hallucinations, mind racing, crazy noises, etc. I heard a voice once, too. It was the most awful thing I have ever experienced. I got out my computer and wrote a journal of my experience and how much I hated what was happening and the life lessons to take from it.
I admittedly knew little about meth before. I know more than I ever wanted now. As it stands now, I still have twitches, slightly elevated heart rate, etc. I feel fortunate in that I did not find the high to be a euphoria that I couldn't live without. The hangover, again, was the worst thing that has ever happened in my life.
To the point, there seems to be little information available for someone in my situation. I want to know what, as a first time user, to expect over the course of the next several days. I do not have a normally addictive personality, but I nonetheless have a combination of paranoia and reasonable concern. So advice on what to expect and how to keep myself a one time only user would be greatly appreciated, especially as it concerns to physical and mental addiction of meth that a normal person cannot anticipate.
One other thing, I have never hung around tina users before, so this experience was unusual. I hope to not do it again.
Thanks
It is something that was more or less accidental; I was drunk and showed extremely poor judgment.
I wanted to lay out my experience, get input, advice, etc. because I do not want to have a second encounter.
Luckily, nothing else unsafe occurred, but I smoked a significant amount over, until early evening. I actually did not really enjoy the high much and smoked more because it was there and, while I knew it was bad news, was obviously unaware of the consequences of the tweaking phase.
I fell asleep for about 5 hours and still felt kinda bugged out when I woke up. I forced myself to eat breakfast, took a multivitamin, etc. Afterwards, I experienced several hours of the most humbling and overwhelming feelings. Paranoia, mild hallucinations, mind racing, crazy noises, etc. I heard a voice once, too. It was the most awful thing I have ever experienced. I got out my computer and wrote a journal of my experience and how much I hated what was happening and the life lessons to take from it.
I admittedly knew little about meth before. I know more than I ever wanted now. As it stands now, I still have twitches, slightly elevated heart rate, etc. I feel fortunate in that I did not find the high to be a euphoria that I couldn't live without. The hangover, again, was the worst thing that has ever happened in my life.
To the point, there seems to be little information available for someone in my situation. I want to know what, as a first time user, to expect over the course of the next several days. I do not have a normally addictive personality, but I nonetheless have a combination of paranoia and reasonable concern. So advice on what to expect and how to keep myself a one time only user would be greatly appreciated, especially as it concerns to physical and mental addiction of meth that a normal person cannot anticipate.
One other thing, I have never hung around tina users before, so this experience was unusual. I hope to not do it again.
Thanks
