That's EXACTLY how I feel!!!! Where'd the rug go????

And, yes, using deadbolts now.

starr4two wrote:

http://methamphetamineabusediscussionforum.yuku.com/sreply/34124 Fri, 16 May 2008 05:10:45 GMT http://methamphetamineabusediscussionforum.yuku.com/reply/34122/t/Ok-this-may-just-be-for-me-but-.html#reply-34122 My Addict X CAN rebuild his life but only when he quits trying to save the shytty one he has addicted to meth.

It IS a lifestyle. My husband loves it. That is why I have serious doubts of his staying clean. It's not just about his drug use. It's a whole group of addicts, thieves, dealers that he hangs out with. They steal, use, steal, use, trade, pawn, use.........you get the picture. And, he's alllllllllllllll about that... ]]> feeds@yuku.com (keepitsimpleforme) http://methamphetamineabusediscussionforum.yuku.com/sreply/34122 Fri, 16 May 2008 05:08:12 GMT http://methamphetamineabusediscussionforum.yuku.com/reply/34068/t/Ok-this-may-just-be-for-me-but-.html#reply-34068 I think a big part of not being able to move forward is closure. When you lose a loved one to meth addiction, there is no closure. It's like one day everything is wonderful and you are totally happy and then suddenly the rug is pulled out right from under you, and your are just left standing there wondering where in the h&ll did the rug go? Sometimes meth addicts recover like so many of the wonderful people on this sight, and sometimes they don't. We, as those... ]]> feeds@yuku.com (sotired) http://methamphetamineabusediscussionforum.yuku.com/sreply/34068 Thu, 15 May 2008 15:39:44 GMT http://methamphetamineabusediscussionforum.yuku.com/reply/34066/t/Ok-this-may-just-be-for-me-but-.html#reply-34066 Of course, this awakening came after I'd finally accepted that We were Over.

ok, luv, I'm going to cry.......

I'm pretty sure that this is my problem too. So much of my pride. I can't believe that he'd give up everything that we've been through. I just cannot get it that I have stuck through the "for better, for worse, for richer, for poorer, in sickness and in health" BETTER (maybe some wouldn't agree that... ]]> feeds@yuku.com (sotired) http://methamphetamineabusediscussionforum.yuku.com/sreply/34066 Thu, 15 May 2008 15:37:40 GMT http://methamphetamineabusediscussionforum.yuku.com/reply/34065/t/Ok-this-may-just-be-for-me-but-.html#reply-34065 I think a big part of not being able to move forward is closure. When you lose a loved one to meth addiction, there is no closure. It's like one day everything is wonderful and you are totally happy and then suddenly the rug is pulled out right from under you, and your are just left standing there wondering where in the h&ll did the rug go? Sometimes meth addicts recover like so many of the wonderful people on this sight, and sometimes... ]]> feeds@yuku.com (starr4two) http://methamphetamineabusediscussionforum.yuku.com/sreply/34065 Thu, 15 May 2008 15:26:18 GMT http://methamphetamineabusediscussionforum.yuku.com/reply/34061/t/Ok-this-may-just-be-for-me-but-.html#reply-34061
she has learned not to be an enabler.she is a codependent along with here pt addiction.but my addiction is worse to her because

of the quick downward spirral that comes with it.I consider myself lucky to have her,things i dont do though.I dont steal from us.Not tru i do spend money we dont have

scratch that.I do ignore her when im... ]]> feeds@yuku.com (robertborges) http://methamphetamineabusediscussionforum.yuku.com/sreply/34061 Thu, 15 May 2008 14:51:48 GMT http://methamphetamineabusediscussionforum.yuku.com/reply/34060/t/Ok-this-may-just-be-for-me-but-.html#reply-34060
I had a sort of awakening after the x went to jail and I Couldn't have contact with him. After refusing his first calls, it was pretty easy actually, but you know how long I worked at it.

Anyway, I used to just feel so crushed because my x-43 had wasted his life and would lose everything so that's why I tried to prop him up and do my damndest to steer him to recovery...blah blah blah. Part of it WAS that I didn't... ]]> feeds@yuku.com (luvepiphany) http://methamphetamineabusediscussionforum.yuku.com/sreply/34060 Thu, 15 May 2008 14:50:01 GMT http://methamphetamineabusediscussionforum.yuku.com/reply/34058/t/Ok-this-may-just-be-for-me-but-.html#reply-34058 i don't think you miss him.... I think you miss the penis.

HaHa since his addiction and extreme selfishness came into play - the penis wasn't all that good anyway - So I hope that's not just my problem!

But this does sound more like my problem......

i think your ego has gotten involved. jealousy and all those exclusively feminine... ]]> feeds@yuku.com (sotired) http://methamphetamineabusediscussionforum.yuku.com/sreply/34058 Thu, 15 May 2008 14:36:02 GMT http://methamphetamineabusediscussionforum.yuku.com/reply/34050/t/Ok-this-may-just-be-for-me-but-.html#reply-34050 Whatever. There is no "power of the kawk" over me.

I see you were kidding.

Yeah, he was clean for almost 6 months. It was heaven. And, it wasn't all about the "kawk"....

mr soul shine wrote:

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I'm not twisting your words. I have no idea about your life. I don't know if your... ]]> feeds@yuku.com (keepitsimpleforme) http://methamphetamineabusediscussionforum.yuku.com/sreply/34050 Thu, 15 May 2008 13:18:55 GMT http://methamphetamineabusediscussionforum.yuku.com/reply/34049/t/Ok-this-may-just-be-for-me-but-.html#reply-34049

ps read up above and you will see that I said I was joking. ]]> feeds@yuku.com (mr soul shine) http://methamphetamineabusediscussionforum.yuku.com/sreply/34049 Thu, 15 May 2008 13:03:05 GMT http://methamphetamineabusediscussionforum.yuku.com/reply/34047/t/Ok-this-may-just-be-for-me-but-.html#reply-34047 You are twisting my words. You know what I meant.

My marriage was good when he was clean. And, sex was not a big deal. There was alot more to our relationship than just carnal pleasure.

mr soul shine wrote:

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and how many of these meth filled relationships are good?

We can quit being available to play the "game".