An Addicts view of days of special importance

Re: An Addicts view of days of special importance

feeds@yuku.com (Eve au naturel) — Fri, 09 May 2008 09:46:54 GMT

Loraura wrote:

Eve wrote: Oh, and regarding addicts looking at days of special importance, Memorial Day (which is coming up) is a really hard day for me not to use drugs or drink, as is the other warm weather holiday the 4th of July. Does anybuddy else have a harder time abstaining during summer holidays? I wonder.

I think any day that NORMIES go all out and...

Re: An Addicts view of days of special importance

feeds@yuku.com (Penel0pe) — Fri, 09 May 2008 09:38:56 GMT

...one thing about your addiction that is different than mine...

I can avoid "Slippery people, slippery places."

You can't - you gotta eat!

I admire your courage, Lo. Addiction is addiction - but I think your is a bit tougher to address - you are constantly surrounded by your "Drug of Choice."

Pickle.

Re: An Addicts view of days of special importance

feeds@yuku.com (Loraura) — Fri, 09 May 2008 08:31:42 GMT

I like them, I think they are hilarious =)

We have a dog, 2 cats, and 2 ferrets at our house. We see a lot of "fails" on a daily basis!

Re: An Addicts view of days of special importance

feeds@yuku.com (forget suzette) — Fri, 09 May 2008 08:17:35 GMT

hey Lori?
....what's up wth the fail avatars?

Re: An Addicts view of days of special importance

feeds@yuku.com (Loraura) — Fri, 09 May 2008 08:10:06 GMT

Oh, and regarding addicts looking at days of special importance, Memorial Day (which is coming up) is a really hard day for me not to use drugs or drink, as is the other warm weather holiday the 4th of July. Does anybuddy else have a harder time abstaining during summer holidays? I wonder.

I think any day that NORMIES go all out and party-hardy are rough on those who have come to a decision that although they would LOVE to party, they can no longer do...

Re: An Addicts view of days of special importance

feeds@yuku.com (logolove) — Fri, 09 May 2008 08:03:53 GMT

Lori- I struggle - I love to eat too and it is in so many ways a more difficult problem than say booze was for me because you cannot avoid food, so it is daily vigilance. One year as a treat for my birthday - I requested no cake - so a friend got me something she knew I loved - I had smoked salmon as a treat with a candle shoved in it - it was awesome and I enjoyed it all the more knowing I had made a healthier choice. Protein, raw fruits and veggies - I have to avoid bread and cheese the...

Re: An Addicts view of days of special importance

feeds@yuku.com (Eve au naturel) — Fri, 09 May 2008 08:00:04 GMT

Loraura wrote:
I have absolutely no negative feelings about other enjoying foods that cause me trouble. I'm allergic. I break out in insanity.

that's cute yet profound. If you don't mind, I'm gonna borrow it.

ThanX for sharing the short version of your story. It has helped me make a...

Re: An Addicts view of days of special importance

feeds@yuku.com (Loraura) — Fri, 09 May 2008 07:02:57 GMT

Unless you make the fruit cup yourself, you'd be surprised how much sugar is added to fruit cups that are pre-prepared/sold in restaurants.

Re: An Addicts view of days of special importance

feeds@yuku.com (chrisgonz) — Fri, 09 May 2008 06:44:21 GMT

I'm big on fruits. I've been seeing a lot of fruit arranged really pretty... like into a plant or something cool.
I think that stuff is great.

Fruit cups are yummy too. I like the spears of things, even cucumber, sprinked in lemon juice with a touch of seasonig... yummy.
Strawberries and a real light cream.... I'm making myself hungry here.

I could eat a whole watermelon, I'm cool with just a slice or two of pizza.

Re: An Addicts view of days of special importance

feeds@yuku.com (Loraura) — Fri, 09 May 2008 05:18:11 GMT

Thanks to you all for listening yesterday. I really needed to talk it through, do some writing, remind myself why I don't just say "screw it".

I made it through the day.

I did get my steak dinner. It was great. I had a happy full belly without putting myself in a tailspin of guilt and remorse.

Now I just have to make it through today, which is ironically my husband's birthday! No big deal, though! He's so laid back. He wouldn't even...

Re: An Addicts view of days of special importance

feeds@yuku.com (The Warden) — Thu, 08 May 2008 23:23:52 GMT

I'd consider myself a food addict too but because I've been an athlete most of my life, my weight has never gotten out of control until I quit using meth. I'm the heaviest I've ever been in my entire life right now and this weight has been ridiculously difficult to take off.

I'd assume that my basal metabolic rate changed when I was a meth user, and now that I actually eat, my metabolism can't keep up.

I've been running at least 2 miles a day...

Re: An Addicts view of days of special importance

feeds@yuku.com (chrisgonz) — Thu, 08 May 2008 22:51:22 GMT

Well I called her after I posted because it was still early enough to do so.

hmmm....
Interesting because she sounded relieved when I told her I saw her weight problem like an addiction, blah, blah, blah.
She started telling me more stuff and she sounded so relieved, poor little thing.

Anway, she has to get her gym membership paid for, at least the initial payment.... we'll see about that.
There's a monthly cost and she can swing that. We talked...

Re: An Addicts view of days of special importance

feeds@yuku.com (chrisgonz) — Thu, 08 May 2008 20:14:42 GMT

oh today's was your birthday??
Well hey, you helped another person in the same battle as yours via her cousin.

Happy Birthday.

Thanks for all the information.

I think my cousin will benefit from this all.
I'm calling her in the morning!!

Re: An Addicts view of days of special importance

feeds@yuku.com (Loraura) — Thu, 08 May 2008 18:57:50 GMT

No need to feel bad! Trust me, if SEEING food was a trigger for me, I'd be back at my top weight, 80 pounds heavier, and then some. Not to mention crazy as a mofo.

I have to be around food all the time. Some times people literally harass me about not eating whatever they are having. Older people seem to REALLY not get it when I don't want pie or cobbler or some other 100 zillion gram of sugar food. People who have decided THEY are having 3 or 4 donuts seem to want to force...

Re: An Addicts view of days of special importance

feeds@yuku.com (forget suzette) — Thu, 08 May 2008 18:24:17 GMT

you know I hate my fukin birthday!

.........LOL! I have no idea what to do with myself.

I felt bad when I erased your cake from your Birthday thread.

I knew you'd feel this way.

I'm sorry Lori, its a bytch.

Re: An Addicts view of days of special importance

feeds@yuku.com (Loraura) — Thu, 08 May 2008 17:31:54 GMT

she could just lose the weight herself if she ate what she'd be allowed to eat with the surgery.

That logic works for normal people. It does not work for food addicts, in my experience. That would be like saying "if you could just use X amount of meth, you could keep the side effects under control." Sure, but what addict can DO THAT for very long without some sort of outside enforcement? I don't know of any. The physical craving combined with...

Re: An Addicts view of days of special importance

feeds@yuku.com (chrisgonz) — Thu, 08 May 2008 17:05:03 GMT

another thing, if it's cool....
the lady with the excess weight who had plastic surgery....

are you saying she lost that much weight from having the surgery done???
like, is it that noticable or do you mean after healing from the surgery and doing the diet given her while recovering from the surgery???

I think it my cousin could see a change, she'd go from there and probably divorce her jerk of a husband.
She's grown co-dependent and she was a...

Re: An Addicts view of days of special importance

feeds@yuku.com (chrisgonz) — Thu, 08 May 2008 16:53:57 GMT

yep, my cousin's bloodwork is crazy too. She's always talking about her blood sugar and diabeties or however that's spelled.

Ok...
My cousin is 300+, I'm thinking that's obese. She's shorter than me.
She's been going to mental health now for about 2 years.
She knows why she over eats.

We had talked about her not doing the surgery because with all the stipulations of it, she could just lose the weight herself if she ate what...

Re: An Addicts view of days of special importance

feeds@yuku.com (Loraura) — Thu, 08 May 2008 15:40:15 GMT

I'm wondering about the after effects of your use as opposed to drug use, consequences.
Like the criminal record, bad credit, illnesses... stuff like that.

Although I abused alcohol a lot before I was 21, I never got arrested for anything. Just kicked out of clubs. I had a fake ID from the time I was 16, so escaped much of the consequences of drinking under age. Food and prescriptions are legal, so that never caused those types of problems.
...

Re: An Addicts view of days of special importance

feeds@yuku.com (TenderheartsKS) — Thu, 08 May 2008 14:37:59 GMT

Loraura, I truly hope as you continue in your recovery, you will eventually be able to enjoy 'special days'. I know it took several years for me to get to that point in my recovery.

I have the utmost respect and admiration for your recovery, and eating disorders can be deadly just as any other addiction.

I don't have cable tv, but I've watched some of the full feature videos on 'Intervention' on A&E's website, and two of those gals were...

An Addicts view of days of special importance

feeds@yuku.com (Loraura) — Thu, 08 May 2008 12:58:17 GMT

Today is a "special day". My birthday. But as an addict who has been working on recovery for 2 years now, it still isn't easy for me. Those who don't know my story, here's the very short version: My primary addiction, my drug of choice, is food. I got mixed up in amphetamines in my attempt to control my weight while still being able to "use" my drug of choice to cope with life. That resulted in a food addiction AND a prescription amphetamine addiction....