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Read my story some time man. It does get better.

http://methamphetamineabusediscussionforum.yuku.com/topic/379 ]]> feeds@yuku.com (Rancid1) http://methamphetamineabusediscussionforum.yuku.com/sreply/27218 Wed, 02 Apr 2008 12:26:29 GMT http://methamphetamineabusediscussionforum.yuku.com/reply/27217/t/32-days-clean-and-sober-but-I-miss-the-life-.html#reply-27217 feeds@yuku.com (Rancid1) http://methamphetamineabusediscussionforum.yuku.com/sreply/27217 Wed, 02 Apr 2008 12:22:53 GMT http://methamphetamineabusediscussionforum.yuku.com/reply/26764/t/32-days-clean-and-sober-but-I-miss-the-life-.html#reply-26764 feeds@yuku.com (The Doc49) http://methamphetamineabusediscussionforum.yuku.com/sreply/26764 Sat, 29 Mar 2008 21:14:56 GMT http://methamphetamineabusediscussionforum.yuku.com/reply/26747/t/32-days-clean-and-sober-but-I-miss-the-life-.html#reply-26747
I do miss my transparent/authentic self and that youthful innocence that we spend our adult lives trying to recapture.

I'm doing this > http://www.seekingsafety.org/3-03-06/aboutSS.html

Doing nothing changed absolutely nothing....NO... ]]> feeds@yuku.com (danimal55) http://methamphetamineabusediscussionforum.yuku.com/sreply/26747 Sat, 29 Mar 2008 15:00:56 GMT http://methamphetamineabusediscussionforum.yuku.com/reply/26742/t/32-days-clean-and-sober-but-I-miss-the-life-.html#reply-26742 feeds@yuku.com (Hemetchik) http://methamphetamineabusediscussionforum.yuku.com/sreply/26742 Sat, 29 Mar 2008 13:01:20 GMT http://methamphetamineabusediscussionforum.yuku.com/reply/26701/t/32-days-clean-and-sober-but-I-miss-the-life-.html#reply-26701 feeds@yuku.com (Robby99) http://methamphetamineabusediscussionforum.yuku.com/sreply/26701 Fri, 28 Mar 2008 17:40:43 GMT http://methamphetamineabusediscussionforum.yuku.com/reply/26697/t/32-days-clean-and-sober-but-I-miss-the-life-.html#reply-26697 "but feel the odds are against me." I don't know about what the odds are, but I do know this: If you want it bad enough, you'll do whatever it takes to have it. That can go both ways, you know. We could be talking about you wanting to use again bad enough, or, you wanting to never use again bad enough.

Either way, you will get what you want if you want it bad enough.

When I... ]]> feeds@yuku.com (nineyearsclean) http://methamphetamineabusediscussionforum.yuku.com/sreply/26697 Fri, 28 Mar 2008 15:42:26 GMT http://methamphetamineabusediscussionforum.yuku.com/reply/26666/t/32-days-clean-and-sober-but-I-miss-the-life-.html#reply-26666 feeds@yuku.com (keepitsimpleforme) http://methamphetamineabusediscussionforum.yuku.com/sreply/26666 Fri, 28 Mar 2008 11:30:28 GMT http://methamphetamineabusediscussionforum.yuku.com/reply/26663/t/32-days-clean-and-sober-but-I-miss-the-life-.html#reply-26663
Yes this is so damn hard, I know Meth will take away the pain but there will be more pain to come if I do not do this..
I have heard people say in the past that there are worse things than dying , you can go crazy and wish you were dead.
I do want it, I need it ( recovery) but feel the odds are against me. ]]> feeds@yuku.com (Robby99) http://methamphetamineabusediscussionforum.yuku.com/sreply/26663 Fri, 28 Mar 2008 11:01:30 GMT http://methamphetamineabusediscussionforum.yuku.com/reply/26657/t/32-days-clean-and-sober-but-I-miss-the-life-.html#reply-26657
That is a known side effect of the first year or more clean from meth. The medical term is anhedonia. It's real, it's not imagined, and it's just one of the many reasons this drug is so hard to recover from.

Here's a short article I wrote that explains in simple terms what goes on with your brain chemistry when you use, and when you stop:
feeds@yuku.com (Loraura) http://methamphetamineabusediscussionforum.yuku.com/sreply/26657 Fri, 28 Mar 2008 10:37:29 GMT http://methamphetamineabusediscussionforum.yuku.com/reply/26655/t/32-days-clean-and-sober-but-I-miss-the-life-.html#reply-26655
I had to learn to live in quiet moments...because before, if it... ]]> feeds@yuku.com (Hemetchik) http://methamphetamineabusediscussionforum.yuku.com/sreply/26655 Fri, 28 Mar 2008 10:16:49 GMT http://methamphetamineabusediscussionforum.yuku.com/reply/26576/t/32-days-clean-and-sober-but-I-miss-the-life-.html#reply-26576 feeds@yuku.com (forget suzette) http://methamphetamineabusediscussionforum.yuku.com/sreply/26576 Thu, 27 Mar 2008 18:42:31 GMT http://methamphetamineabusediscussionforum.yuku.com/reply/26571/t/32-days-clean-and-sober-but-I-miss-the-life-.html#reply-26571 feeds@yuku.com (Robby99) http://methamphetamineabusediscussionforum.yuku.com/sreply/26571 Thu, 27 Mar 2008 16:12:04 GMT http://methamphetamineabusediscussionforum.yuku.com/reply/26565/t/32-days-clean-and-sober-but-I-miss-the-life-.html#reply-26565
Everyone is right, you have to give it time. In ealry recovery I thought I was defined by meth and that the only way I could be happy was with meth. I think a part of me will always miss meth, but now that part is very small and I now know there is so much more to me than just my addiction. You canmake it through this hun I promise you that.

Congrats on 32 days clean...soon enough you will have 60, then 90, then a year! You will look back on the way... ]]> feeds@yuku.com (SavannahOfLight) http://methamphetamineabusediscussionforum.yuku.com/sreply/26565 Thu, 27 Mar 2008 15:32:51 GMT http://methamphetamineabusediscussionforum.yuku.com/reply/26564/t/32-days-clean-and-sober-but-I-miss-the-life-.html#reply-26564
If you can just hang in there.
....this is as good as you'll ever feel when you quit dope.

a month ain't long enough, you'll be better soon.

next time you quit.....you won't bounce back like you use to.

.......then you won't bounce back.

I wish I had quit, any of th times before this last one.

it really ruined me.

welcome to the board. ]]> feeds@yuku.com (forget suzette) http://methamphetamineabusediscussionforum.yuku.com/sreply/26564 Thu, 27 Mar 2008 15:16:39 GMT http://methamphetamineabusediscussionforum.yuku.com/reply/26547/t/32-days-clean-and-sober-but-I-miss-the-life-.html#reply-26547
It's been a few years now, and like any broken heart, mine healed. Slowly, but it did happen. I had to work really hard to survive every nostalgic feeling, every euphoric recall, every ounce of resentment and self pity I had because I had to "lose" everything.

Now I focus on making my life something I want to live in my "new" city, even though it's the city I grew up in.

My... ]]> feeds@yuku.com (le grumps) http://methamphetamineabusediscussionforum.yuku.com/sreply/26547 Thu, 27 Mar 2008 13:26:41 GMT http://methamphetamineabusediscussionforum.yuku.com/reply/26538/t/32-days-clean-and-sober-but-I-miss-the-life-.html#reply-26538 feeds@yuku.com (rememberme) http://methamphetamineabusediscussionforum.yuku.com/sreply/26538 Thu, 27 Mar 2008 12:08:36 GMT http://methamphetamineabusediscussionforum.yuku.com/reply/26535/t/32-days-clean-and-sober-but-I-miss-the-life-.html#reply-26535
You might try counting your blessings every day and focusing on the positives. ]]> feeds@yuku.com (XOutlaw Woman) http://methamphetamineabusediscussionforum.yuku.com/sreply/26535 Thu, 27 Mar 2008 11:47:27 GMT http://methamphetamineabusediscussionforum.yuku.com/topic/2540/t/32-days-clean-and-sober-but-I-miss-the-life-.html feeds@yuku.com (Robby99) http://methamphetamineabusediscussionforum.yuku.com/topic/2540 Thu, 27 Mar 2008 11:32:31 GMT