If love could have "cured" me.....

Re: If love could have "cured" me.....

feeds@yuku.com (LdyOfWzdm) — Fri, 28 Mar 2008 08:24:44 GMT

XOutlaw.....
I hope for you someday that forgiveness will come. I wish you nothing but peace of mind, and a soul filled with sunshine.

Thanks for sharing.

Keep On Truckin'
Lady

Re: If love could have "cured" me.....

feeds@yuku.com (XOutlaw Woman) — Fri, 28 Mar 2008 05:57:58 GMT

Lady, I always maintain the fact that none of my problems were caused by my parents. They did the best they could. I was a rebellious, shy, teenager trying to find my niche when I first experimented with pot when I was14 years old. It really had nothing to do with them. It had everything to do with me and my bad choices.

I would never dream of purposly hurting either of my parents. I have caused them enough pain to last a lifetime without even trying. I hid my addiction and tried...

Re: If love could have "cured" me.....

feeds@yuku.com (luvepiphany) — Thu, 27 Mar 2008 16:44:41 GMT

......you can quit for love, but you can't recover.

I think that says it all suzette.

Thank you Suzy

luv

Re: If love could have "cured" me.....

feeds@yuku.com (forget suzette) — Thu, 27 Mar 2008 15:02:07 GMT

Welp..
....I quit for 6 years FOR LOVE.

because I thought it would last longer than speed and he made valid points, after we lost everything.
......so I ABSTAINED from using. Fueled by Comitment, integrity, and trust.
the FOUNDATION of my core, in cotribution to the existance of higher love.
Love beats the Demon.

...for me.

and I could'nt recover, and I could'nt use for 6 years.

....My ex would say "why can't you...

Re: If love could have "cured" me.....

feeds@yuku.com (luvepiphany) — Thu, 27 Mar 2008 14:41:22 GMT

I get it Pen, I get it! Great 3 posts or was it 4?

The woman who bailed me out of jail when I got arrested on felony possession charges - the friend who put her house up as collateral for me - I never paid her back until AFTER I got into recovery. I made lots of promises from inside that phone cell in the county lock up, but once I was out, I never had a dime...

Re: If love could have "cured" me.....

feeds@yuku.com (LdyOfWzdm) — Thu, 27 Mar 2008 13:37:42 GMT
Penelope,

I loved your post too!

I know that my daughter has done some "dirty deeds" not only to her loved ones but her using buddies to. I know that once she had user "friend" that was allowing her to stay at her home (for several months) until, she went back to jail on failure to report, and her PO had a warrant issued for her arrest. My daughter couldn't get a bail bonds man, so her friend co-signed for her. When my daughter got out of jail...

Re: If love could have "cured" me.....

feeds@yuku.com (LdyOfWzdm) — Thu, 27 Mar 2008 13:27:16 GMT

Ann,

Great post...thanks!

I have a question for you and all those who have used.....

Did you ever stand there right in your parents face and tell them, "well if you had been there when I needed you I wouldn't be using". Or something to that affect. My daughter on a number of cases has stood there face to face and blamed her addiction on me, her step-father, and the hardships we endured when I was a single mother.

If so...did you...

Re: If love could have "cured" me.....

feeds@yuku.com (le grumps) — Thu, 27 Mar 2008 13:20:14 GMT
LOL.

Re: If love could have "cured" me.....

feeds@yuku.com (Loraura) — Thu, 27 Mar 2008 13:02:51 GMT
Way to quintiple post! HAHA

Re: If love could have "cured" me.....

feeds@yuku.com (Sfj) — Thu, 27 Mar 2008 12:34:24 GMT
You can say that again.

Re: If love could have "cured" me.....

feeds@yuku.com (XOutlaw Woman) — Thu, 27 Mar 2008 12:32:36 GMT
WOW Penelope! I am happy you liked my post, but dang! LOL!!

Re: If love could have "cured" me.....

feeds@yuku.com (Penel0pe) — Thu, 27 Mar 2008 09:09:04 GMT
Great post, Ann.

I want to add that, in my active addiction, I was devious. The people who loved and tried to help me often got used by me. I'm not sure that my In-laws especially were willing to admit to themselves that what we were REALLY doing was using, but whenever we asked to be bailed out of whatever financial mess we got ourselves into (No electricity, no phone, can't make the rent again, etc,) they did, and we knew they would.

When the power bill was $200,...

Re: If love could have "cured" me.....

feeds@yuku.com (Penel0pe) — Thu, 27 Mar 2008 09:03:24 GMT
Great post, Ann.

I want to add that, in my active addiction, I was devious. The people who loved and tried to help me often got used by me. I'm not sure that my In-laws especially were willing to admit to themselves that what we were REALLY doing was using, but whenever we asked to be bailed out of whatever financial mess we got ourselves into (No electricity, no phone, can't make the rent again, etc,) they did, and we knew they would.

When the power bill was $200,...

Re: If love could have "cured" me.....

feeds@yuku.com (Penel0pe) — Thu, 27 Mar 2008 08:57:53 GMT
Great post, Ann.

I want to add that, in my active addiction, I was devious. The people who loved and tried to help me often got used by me. I'm not sure that my In-laws especially were willing to admit to themselves that what we were REALLY doing was using, but whenever we asked to be bailed out of whatever financial mess we got ourselves into (No electricity, no phone, can't make the rent again, etc,) they did, and we knew they would.

When the power bill was $200,...

Re: If love could have "cured" me.....

feeds@yuku.com (Penel0pe) — Thu, 27 Mar 2008 08:56:50 GMT
Great post, Ann.

I want to add that, in my active addiction, I was devious. The people who loved and tried to help me often got used by me. I'm not sure that my In-laws especially were willing to admit to themselves that what we were REALLY doing was using, but whenever we asked to be bailed out of whatever financial mess we got ourselves into (No electricity, no phone, can't make the rent again, etc,) they did, and we knew they would.

When the power bill was $200,...

Re: If love could have "cured" me.....

feeds@yuku.com (Penel0pe) — Thu, 27 Mar 2008 08:56:12 GMT
Great post, Ann.

I want to add that, in my active addiction, I was devious. The people who loved and tried to help me often got used by me. I'm not sure that my In-laws especially were willing to admit to themselves that what we were REALLY doing was using, but whenever we asked to be bailed out of whatever financial mess we got ourselves into (No electricity, no phone, can't make the rent again, etc,) they did, and we knew they would.

When the power bill was $200,...

If love could have "cured" me.....

feeds@yuku.com (XOutlaw Woman) — Thu, 27 Mar 2008 08:22:22 GMT
So many times I hear a loved one say, "If they really love me, why don't they just stop?". Well it is not that simple. I have a family that loves me dearly. I would do just about anything for them, but when I was out there using meth, no one, or nothing, could have made me stop until I was good and ready to do it on my own.

My parents and family knew something was very wrong with me, and they let me know they were worried. I thought they were over-reacting. I thought I...