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Question abount anti-depressants

feeds@yuku.com (inebad) — Wed, 09 Dec 2009 14:40:55 GMT

Short summary I was a long time meth user I now have 104 days clean just by white knuckeling it. I started seeing a counselor a couple of weeks ago. He suggested I see a Doctor and get on some type of anti-depressants. I have a doctors appointment tomorrow. I have no insurance and not a lot of money but some. I was wondering if anyone could clue me in on what to ask for or any suggestions that might be helpful. Thanks in advance.

My 18 year old...

feeds@yuku.com (Hemetchik) — Wed, 09 Dec 2009 14:01:31 GMT

My son Bryan, that wrote me his thoughts earlier this year about me and what he thought of me..

has been MIA FOR 5 days...
stole 200 from my 71 year old mother..

fuc kd his job at starbucks and college...

just quit going...

I need suggestions to tell my mom...what to do and how to cut ties with him!!

I am printing it and taking it to her tonight....

I got her to stop paying for his cell phone...
and I am trying to get her...

His second opportunity...

feeds@yuku.com (lily7474) — Wed, 09 Dec 2009 12:54:38 GMT

Well, right about now he should be arriving or on his way to outpatient therapy. I've been seeing him regularly and he mentioned that he planned on going last night, if he had enough gas...when he saw my reaction ( I just didn't respond) he reiterated that he was going. I sit here today and wonder if he will. It's out of my hands, I know...just bracing myself for another let down.

We had a brief conversation about my trust issues and...

Psych Nurses.... Recovering addicts.. please read and give me your opinions here!!!

feeds@yuku.com (BlaizeinNJ) — Wed, 09 Dec 2009 10:20:23 GMT

Well my brother has been doing well since last Thursday. Thanks again for all of your posts...

As I wrote in a previous post I was able to get the hospital that he was released from in Oklahoma to prescribe him 30 days of 20 mg Abilify and 2 mg Congentin. He is taking his meds everyday with no problems. He is slowly coming out of the zombie like state... it's wonderful.

On the flip side... he was supposed to see a counselor and psychiatrist Monday...

I'm sending a CHRISTMAS card/letter to our friend Kevin/Imgetinrite......please post your messages to him......

feeds@yuku.com (nineyearsclean) — Tue, 08 Dec 2009 11:10:59 GMT

I'm sending Kevin - Imgetinrite - a letter this week.
Today is Tuesday, 12/8/09.
Please post your messages to him by Thursday afternoon, so I can get it in the mail by Friday, 12/11/09.

For those of you who aren't familiar with Kevin, he is a beloved member of this community and he is currently incarcerated. He worked hard to get clean and do the...

This is one reason i joined this site.....

feeds@yuku.com (I hate Meth) — Tue, 08 Dec 2009 04:43:34 GMT

As i stated in a previous post...i aquired some land from my Dad.......and put in a new house. I knew some things about the neighbors.. but as i found out they were even more than i expected. we are the type of people that judge peole just because of were they live or what their conditions may be BUT....... my husband went over to introduce himself and be friendly.....He asked the male"how's it going?"...the male replied "Just sitting here with all of my friends"...HE...

Addiction, What the hell is it?

feeds@yuku.com (xxaddict) — Mon, 07 Dec 2009 19:57:36 GMT

Since Ive been in recovery. And by that I mean in a recovery program. Ive heard several different people describe their addiction. Well maybe not describe. But talk about it like its something other than what I perceive it to be.

Ive heard them say..... My addiction wants me dead. My addiction is in the corner doing push ups. Its get-in stronger & stronger. My addiction just waiting for me. My addicted mind. Now dont get me wrong. I totally...

Someone please speak recovery to my azz....

feeds@yuku.com (release myslf) — Mon, 07 Dec 2009 06:58:36 GMT

Ah...."in all our affairs"....working my recovery....where the rubber meets the road...

I need some support and some reminders today, please!!!! I had two things this past week trigger me...

My mom's active borderline behavior wreaking havoc and my x husband (not the xaddict) being who he is....a complete sociopath...(for those who don't know I have alot of unresolved sexual abuse issues from my marriage)...

Both of these people are people who I...

Life shows up

feeds@yuku.com (Penel0pe) — Sun, 06 Dec 2009 10:38:16 GMT

I am at a point in my recovery where it isn't about using anymore - at least not today, and not for a while now. A long while.

At this point in my recovery, it's about learning how to deal with life, how to deal with emotions; you know, earlier on in my recovery I could easily say "I feel better!"

Little did I know that what I was really saying is this:

I feel anger better
I feel hurt better
I feel betrayed better
I feel confused...

Courage Hates Meth! and so does Her Son!!

feeds@yuku.com (Miss Cherokee) — Sun, 06 Dec 2009 08:52:41 GMT

Hi everyone!! My baby is back home with me!! YAYAYAYAYA!!! I am so grateful that I have an exceptional worker here in Texas a cps worker that believes in me and felt inspired by God to help me. Man do I feel inspired myself and this time not being wired. I got my 30 day chip a while ago, and I feel great about going on my 60 days...My poor husband is in jail still and he is suffering. They lowered the...

need to know about a friend

feeds@yuku.com (dave) — Sat, 05 Dec 2009 23:24:46 GMT

I just found a red plastic cup with a small hole in the bottom.( Very precise and deliberate.) The cup has black ash remnants and some short hair.Like it is used often and not cleaned. Not a cup anyone would be drinking out of. I also found a small, empty tube of "Abreva" (10% docosanol) in the bottom. My friend has been struggling with Meth for 3 years. He swears he has been clean for 4 months. What could he be using this cup for?? Putting his pipe in it? foil in it? The...

It sucks

feeds@yuku.com (2002ds) — Sat, 05 Dec 2009 19:25:35 GMT

To wake up and realize that your not as indivisible as you though you when you were on meth.... to tell you the truth i makes me paranoid sometimes.. its one fuked up wake up call

i don't have a clever title--just wanting to talk.

feeds@yuku.com (lily7474) — Fri, 04 Dec 2009 19:23:07 GMT

well, my husband re-scheduled his intake appt for OP therapy. says he wants to go.

he's been opening up and more honest about his use and the things he did.
a few weeks ago, i noticed he wasn't wearing his ring. i asked him where it was. he said he lost it. i knew right then and there he had pawned it.
last night he was truthful and told me he did. he said he has 4 months to get it out. he pawned it for a measly $40.00.
it hurt soooo much to hear that...

Changed Conditions...

feeds@yuku.com (DETECTIVE345) — Fri, 04 Dec 2009 09:14:13 GMT

So my ex-girlfriend sent me a text this am asking how my night was. Responded I went to church then home, but if she meant Tuesday night (party at the St. Francis Yacht Club hosted by another firm) it was ok, but was, as usual, thinking of her alot.

Among other things in our texts back and forth she said she knows she hurts me so she runs, and she can't stop hurting herself. I asked her to look to Christ for deliverence and said sin and meth will not have dominion over her if...

what happend to sasario's post

feeds@yuku.com (once apon a time) — Fri, 04 Dec 2009 07:02:49 GMT

There was a post here this morning written by: (sasario) I replied to it, but now its gone. What does that mean? I get a 404 err when I try and open it from my profile. Does that mean it was blocked because some thing was said wrong on either of our parts or both, or what??????????????????????

I did it. I gave my testimony yesterday.

feeds@yuku.com (Lexi Sunshine) — Fri, 04 Dec 2009 06:32:39 GMT

I found out Tuesday that this time, the prosecutor was not willing to settle on this one, that it needed to go to a higher court, but before it could happen, I had to testify in front of a judge.

I was so very scared, anxious...mostly about seeing him. I called the domestic assault shelter, and they sent an advocate to go to court with me, so I had her support as well as the victim's advocate that works at the courthouse. I had to tell my story and answer any questions the...

Does Anybody Know....

feeds@yuku.com (Kellhappy) — Thu, 03 Dec 2009 22:39:13 GMT

I'm just wondering if anybody knows anything about what happened in Kevin's court case??

I don't have phone calls from anybody, and letters are too slow for me to have heard anything by now.

Thanks!

I Have a Character Defect

feeds@yuku.com (nineyearsclean) — Thu, 03 Dec 2009 18:35:17 GMT

I have a character defect. Actually, I have several, but this one is especially troubling. It doesn't involve controlled substances or sex or inflicting bodily harm on anyone, including myself, but I'm not willing to share its exact nature at this point.

Just know that it is one that causes me deep shame and anguish, and has plagued me for as long as I can remember. Further, it seems to have a life of its own. When it rears its ugly head, I feel like...

for loved ones and everyone

feeds@yuku.com (charliexoxo) — Thu, 03 Dec 2009 17:18:29 GMT

ARTICLE: from LA VISTA Recovery and Wholeness Center for Woman in San Jacinto CA

feeds@yuku.com (Hemetchik) — Thu, 03 Dec 2009 14:25:21 GMT

"Addiction robs women of the possiblilities that these years of harvest hold. Addiction slowly dims her vision to the energy of life and to the successes as well as the deep losses they have endured. RECOVERY BEGINS WITH THE SAME FIRST STEP FOR EVERYONE: Abstinence.

The work to build a new life and recognize the pitfalls on the path to a sustained sobriety is QUITE DIFFERENT FOR EACH WOMAN AND IS CERTAINLY AFFECTED BY THE...