General Discussion

taking steps finally

feeds@yuku.com (robertborges) — Thu, 15 May 2008 15:10:45 GMT

I went to my appointment today with kaisers dependancy program.took my sweet a time.assement was what i expected.I am getting help with the detoxing I"m going

thru.Thank god because I couldnt get past the physical and emotional symptoms.I would keep caving in.But like i have said before when the pain of using is as bad

as the pain of withdrawls.For me anyway and you keep going back then whats the point.insanity has taken over.The program is outpatiant only.all day 7...

Once a METH addict, always a METH addict?

feeds@yuku.com (nineyearsclean) — Thu, 15 May 2008 13:09:47 GMT

I'm curious what you all think about this. Once a meth addict, always a meth addict. Is it true?

Please note, I am talking about meth addiction ONLY.

I was a meth addict for 13 years. I am now a former meth addict.

I happen to believe that with meth, by virtue of it's uncanny addictive qualities, anyone is susceptible to it's...

test

feeds@yuku.com (keepitsimpleforme) — Thu, 15 May 2008 13:00:06 GMT

We Love You Fish!!!!!

feeds@yuku.com (jg1985) — Thu, 15 May 2008 11:02:22 GMT

Ok guys......we need to send some good vibes out to Fish!!!! He needs us!!! We need to pray for him. He just needs our thoughts....

jg

Check this out

feeds@yuku.com (xxaddict) — Thu, 15 May 2008 01:26:07 GMT

You know all that shame and guilt I went through the first 2 years or so of my sobriety. Well back then it broke my heart daily. It smothered me in sadiness and worry. It nearly drove me crazy.

But today it saves my azz daily!!

And the reason for this is because I went through it.

I didnt hide from it. I didnt run from it. (although I might have if I could have found any way other than...

from rumi . .

feeds@yuku.com (donnaeve) — Wed, 14 May 2008 22:53:15 GMT

gamble everything for love,
if your a true human being.
if not,leave
this gathering.
half-heartedness doesnt reach
into majesty.you set out
to find God,but then you keep stopping for long periods
at mean-spirited roadhouses.

Reunion with Cousins/Comments about Addicts

feeds@yuku.com (mlg) — Wed, 14 May 2008 18:32:33 GMT

Had a great Mother's Day...the best in years.
Our daughter not only is recovering beautifully physically, but inside out...she clearly has had the "spritual awakening" they talk about in the 12-Steps. I sit and listen to her, in disbelief...meaning, a miracle from what was going on 2 yrs. ago ( we thought she was probably dead)... Just For Today, Today is GOOD!

Anyway, thought I'd share a comment by one of my cousins...."Sarah is so awesome, she is...

Ok, this may just be for me but .....

feeds@yuku.com (sotired) — Wed, 14 May 2008 14:35:30 GMT

I venting a little because I'm (once a friggin again) missing my ex and I just need to write this down so I can remember how bad it is with him while he's using..........

First of all, he just doesn't care. Doesn't care about me, his kids - nothing. Sometimes I think maybe he never did - but I have to correct myself because I know I felt loved. I know I did.

Anyway, (although he's living with someone else) he has been coming to my house while I'm at...

Insanity

feeds@yuku.com (NASCARGIRL1) — Wed, 14 May 2008 14:11:33 GMT

I read this today and wanted to share it

Mistakes! we all know how it feels to make them. many of us feel that our entire lives have been a mistake. we often regard our mistakes with shame or guilt-at the very least, with frustration and impatience. we tend to see mistakes as evidence that we are really sick, crazy, stupied, or too damaged to recover.

In truth, mistakes are a very vital and important part of...

Should I tell my girlfriends parents?

feeds@yuku.com (Help442) — Wed, 14 May 2008 14:00:19 GMT

My ex girlfriend (31yr old) is strung out on meth. I do not use. The meth was in her past before we met and recently resurfaced in January of this year We were together for 2 1/2 years and our relationship recently ended when I moved out May 1st. . She got much worse. She is now selling it with three other people that have moved into her house. She is close to her parents, should I involve them and ask them to help her, or will this be a sort of betrayal and really mess things up. I am...

Life is good!

feeds@yuku.com (No More Lies) — Wed, 14 May 2008 13:16:03 GMT

Hi Everyone!! Just wanted to check in and say that I am doing good. I can't believe it has almost been 6months that me and my son moved out. It's funny how my ex always said to me when I would "threaten" leaving him that he would just bye....see ya.....I did it by myself before I met you and I can do it by myself again......hmmmm...........funny how that goes......as he just got a job and started it just this past monday.......probably because he is about to get evicted yet...

Are there demons here?

feeds@yuku.com (luvepiphany) — Wed, 14 May 2008 12:46:46 GMT

What's up? Are there demons moderating here and keeping out posts and deleting ones they don't like?

What the H3LL?

feeds@yuku.com (luvepiphany) — Wed, 14 May 2008 12:29:27 GMT

I just responded to Suzy's post with a LONG LONG heartfelt reply and I want to know why all my writing was destroyed
with only a message that that topic was deleted and no longer available? I'm pissed!

I love Suzy for being honest and
man, her posts have helped me to get FREE
and done more for my own recovery of My Self
after falling into love and codependence with a meth addict
and I'm very F-IN pissed that my post was deleted.

I...

Can't see your post or reply?

feeds@yuku.com (Loraura) — Wed, 14 May 2008 12:22:14 GMT

Don't worry, it's not you. There seems to be a refresh issue going on with the board. Be patient. It will show up eventually.

To KISFM: The Oasis

feeds@yuku.com (starfishlover123) — Wed, 14 May 2008 12:06:49 GMT

Ever been with someone you just thought you couldn't live without? Ever had such intimacy with someone that was so true and real it surpassed "love," (as love is just an emotion.) Felt like you were one. . .if that person died, you would too - or at least a part of you?

I did, and it was beautiful. I lost it to a ruthless bytch named Crystal who takes no prisoners. Crystal - Meth, that is. She stole my soulmate - stole his sanity, his health, our home,...

KISFM

feeds@yuku.com (MkUsmile) — Wed, 14 May 2008 07:25:48 GMT

I see that you're logged on.... how're things with your husband? How are you and the kids?

M.

Husband went to first meeting yesterday!

feeds@yuku.com (LostinTx68) — Wed, 14 May 2008 05:16:33 GMT

Well he went, to his first initial rehab meeting yesterday. Took 2 hours and I'm not really sure what was said but the counselor told him that his company had a program that allowed him 6-8 weeks off from work for personal stuff - its called something - I can't remember the initials. But all he has to do is tell his superior at work why - and noone else. He's hoping that superior will keep it quiet because he hasn't failed a pee test or anything and is trying to keep this...

Dont sit idle.

feeds@yuku.com (robertborges) — Tue, 13 May 2008 20:41:48 GMT

Since what happened this weekend.only 3 days ago.I know the worst thing for me to do is nothing.Thats what got me using again.

being home on disability since march 10th.to much free time.nobody home but me most the day.why not try it again after 8 months.

anyway we all no what that choice did for me.o I"ll quit in time to go back to work.yea right.the cycle began and ended up the same way as

last time.Wanting to die just to break away.Anyway going to...

Fishslapr

feeds@yuku.com (SavannahOfLight) — Tue, 13 May 2008 20:24:17 GMT

Hey hun we are all wondering where ya are. We miss you bunches and are worried about you. If your just needin to take a break thats cool, but just let us know ur alive and breathin.

((((((((((((((((((((((((((((Greg))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

I'm home!

feeds@yuku.com (SavannahOfLight) — Tue, 13 May 2008 16:24:34 GMT

I just wanted to thank all of you who called/posted while I was in the hospital. You positve words really helped and knowing I have friends like you who care so much really help. Kinda tired from the five our drive so that why this will be short. But I am back around and here to stay